Monday, August 30, 2010

the reason

I came to LA to pursue a dream...but in all honesty it really was more of a passion.  I think that for most people going to see a movie has a certain feel.  However, for me it was more than a feeling.  It was a rush, a overload of creative ideas.  I went to the movies yesterday and my creative juices began to flow as soon as the first trailer started.  I LOVE MOVIES!  And as I sit in my cube, for the first time I am not wondering what if.  I am thinking, "How can I?"  Even though my "job" may be far from the creative world of film, my passion still lies within film.  I am sick of wanting to work on projects, I am finally starting to do it.  So I say to all of you that sit in a job that is not your passion, never let the dream go.  It is so romantic to live on the borderline of your dream and your present reality. 

I leave you with a quote....

If you don't go after what you want, you'll never have it.  If you don't ask, the answer is always no.  If you don't step forward, you're always going to be in the same place. 

Thursday, August 26, 2010

think i need a sunrise

So I just heard the song Boston by Augustana.  He says, "Think I need a sunrise, tired of the sunsets."  The grass is always greener isn't it.  I mean I live in on of the most beautiful places in the US, yet I long for Michigan.  Snow, cold, leaves changing, wet springs, thunderstorms, humidity that makes the south seem cool.  Michigan is beautiful in its own right, but I am passing up the pleasures of SoCal.
I promised my self that I would watch the sunset at least two times in one week.  It has been 1 year since we moved into our place and, you guessed it, not once have I seen two sunsets. 
Why is it so hard for me to realize that ten years from now, wherever I am, I will look back on these times and remember how great everything was.  I am just fickle.  I really have to admit...I have met a lot of great people in the past few months, been playing golf (which is what I have wanted to do since the day I moved out here) and been a great deal more social.  So...I say for the first time that I have lived out here...I like LA.  It has been a great experience and I am not going to wish anymore of it away...I am going to enjoy these amazing sunsets...then some day I will enjoy those amazing sunrises. 

I leave with a quote...and to say...enjoy today.

I never think of the future - it comes soon enough.  ~Albert Einstein

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

in the beginning...

It was a simple concept.  A guy that fit the mold; the look, the personality.  Carl.  A term used as a joke, soon became so much more.  So I ask the question.  Did I create Carl based on my sense of self.  Well I ask you to read my blog and decide for yourself...this is life as I see it.